today was a strange day for me ,i was at home alone for the first time in a year ,felt a bit lost also felt relief ,all my children were at school ,for the last year my son who has just turned 13 was out of school,he went back today and i think he actually enjoyed it ,i want this first week to go by quick so that he can settel .i have four children two girls and two boys ,in the last year i have also become a single parent now thats another challange ,the main struggle is the finance side of things so bad that im living in fear of the bailiffs turning up in the morning ,im sure im not the only one wandering what they will take from my house ,i will try my best to outsmart them ,its worked in the past .